Assignment:
1.
Read Everyday Use by Alice
Walker.
2.
In your composition book, separate
a page into four equal quadrants and illustrate four different images that the
author uses to help move the story along
3.
Create a collage that illustrates
who you are according to your interests.
Fill the entire sheet of cardstock with information that will help the
class learn about you. (This is
your chance to show off your scrapbooking skills.) The most important piece of information that must be visible
is your name.
Everyday Use
by Alice Walker
I will wait for her in the yard that Maggie and I made so
clean and wavy yesterday afternoon. A yard like this is more comfortable than
most people know. It is not just a yard. It is like an extended living room.
When the hard clay is swept clean as a floor and the fine sand around the edges
lined with tiny, irregular grooves, anyone can come and sit and look up into
the elm tree and wait for the breezes that never come inside the house.
Maggie will be nervous until after her sister goes: she will
stand hopelessly in corners, homely and ashamed of the burn scars down her arms
and legs, eying her sister with a mixture of envy and awe. She thinks her
sister has held life always in the palm of one hand, that "no" is a word
the world never learned to say to her.
You've no doubt seen those TV shows where the child who has
"made it" is confronted, as a surprise, by her own mother and father,
tottering in weakly from backstage. (A pleasant surprise, of course: What would
they do if parent and child came on the show only to curse out and insult each
other?) On TV mother and child embrace and smile into each other's faces.
Sometimes the mother and father weep, the child wraps them in her arms and
leans across the table to tell how she would not have made it without their help.
I have seen these programs.
Sometimes I dream a dream in which Dee and I are suddenly
brought together on a TV program of this sort. Out of a dark and soft-seated
limousine I am ushered into a bright room filled with many people. There I meet
a smiling, gray, sporty man like Johnny Carson who shakes my hand and tells me
what a fine girl I have. Then we are on the stage and Dee is embracing me with
tears in her eyes. She pins on my dress a large orchid, even though she has
told me once that she thinks orchids are tacky flowers.
In real life I am a large, big-boned woman with rough,
man-working hands. In the winter I wear flannel nightgowns to bed and overalls
during the day. I can kill and clean a hog as mercilessly as a man. My fat
keeps me hot in zero weather. I can work outside all day, breaking ice to get
water for washing; I can eat pork liver cooked over the open fire minutes after
it comes steaming from the hog. One winter I knocked a bull calf straight in
the brain between the eyes with a sledge hammer and had the meat hung up to
chill before nightfall. But of course all this does not show on television. I
am the way my daughter would want me to be: a hundred pounds lighter, my skin
like an uncooked barley pancake. My hair glistens in the hot bright lights.
Johnny Carson has much to do to keep up with my quick and witty tongue.
But that is a mistake. I know even before I wake up. Who
ever knew a Johnson with a quick tongue? Who can even imagine me looking a
strange white man in the eye? It seems to me I have talked to them always with
one foot raised in flight, with my head fumed in whichever way is farthest from
them. Dee, though. She would always look anyone in the eye. Hesitation was no
part of her nature.
"How do I look, Mama?" Maggie says, showing just
enough of her thin body enveloped in pink skirt and red blouse for me to know
she's there, almost hidden by the door.
"Come out into the yard," I say.
Have you ever seen a lame animal, perhaps a dog run over by
some careless person rich enough to own a car, sidle up to someone who is
ignorant enough to be kind to him? That is the way my Maggie walks. She has
been like this, chin on chest, eyes on ground, feet in shuffle, ever since the
fire that burned the other house to the ground.
Dee is lighter than Maggie, with nicer hair and a fuller
figure. She's a woman now, though sometimes I forget. How long ago was it that
the other house burned? Ten, twelve years? Sometimes I can still hear the
flames and feel Maggie's arms sticking to me, her hair smoking and her dress
falling off her in little black papery flakes. Her eyes seemed stretched open,
blazed open by the flames reflected in them. And Dee. I see her standing off
under the sweet gum tree she used to dig gum out of; a look of concentration on
her face as she watched the last dingy gray board of the house fall in toward
the red-hot brick chimney. Why don't you do a dance around the ashes? I'd
wanted to ask her. She had hated the house that much.
I used to think she hated Maggie, too. But that was before
we raised money, the church and me, to send her to Augusta to school. She used
to read to us without pity; forcing words, lies, other folks' habits, whole
lives upon us two, sitting trapped and ignorant underneath her voice. She
washed us in a river of make-believe, burned us with a lot of knowledge we
didn't necessarily need to know. Pressed us to her with the serf' oust way she
read, to shove us away at just the moment, like dimwits, we seemed about to
understand.
Dee wanted nice things. A yellow organdy dress to wear to
her graduation from high school; black pumps to match a green suit she'd made
from an old suit somebody gave me. She was determined to stare down any
disaster in her efforts. Her eyelids would not flicker for minutes at a time.
Often I fought off the temptation to shake her. At sixteen she had a style of
her own: and knew what style was.
I never had an education myself. After second grade the
school was closed down. Don't ask my why: in 1927 colored asked fewer questions
than they do now. Sometimes Maggie reads to me. She stumbles along
good-naturedly but can't see well. She knows she is not bright. Like good looks
and money, quickness passes her by. She will marry John Thomas (who has mossy
teeth in an earnest face) and then I'll be free to sit here and I guess just
sing church songs to myself. Although I never was a good singer. Never could
carry a tune. I was always better at a man's job. I used to love to milk till I
was hooked in the side in '49. Cows are soothing and slow and don't bother you,
unless you try to milk them the wrong way.
I have deliberately turned my back on the house. It is three
rooms, just like the one that burned, except the roof is tin; they don't make
shingle roofs any more. There are no real windows, just some holes cut in the
sides, like the portholes in a ship, but not round and not square, with rawhide
holding the shutters up on the outside. This house is in a pasture, too, like
the other one. No doubt when Dee sees it she will want to tear it down. She
wrote me once that no matter where we "choose" to live, she will
manage to come see us. But she will never bring her friends. Maggie and I
thought about this and Maggie asked me, "Mama, when did Dee ever have any
friends?"
She had a few. Furtive boys in pink shirts hanging about on
washday after school. Nervous girls who never laughed. Impressed with her they
worshiped the well-turned phrase, the cute shape, the scalding humor that
erupted like bubbles in lye. She read to them.
When she was courting Jimmy T she didn't have much time to
pay to us, but turned all her faultfinding power on him. He flew to marry a
cheap city girl from a family of ignorant flashy people. She hardly had time to
recompose herself.
When she comes I will meet—but there they are!
Maggie attempts to make a dash for the house, in her
shuffling way, but I stay her with my hand. "Come back here," I say.
And she stops and tries to dig a well in the sand with her toe.
It is hard to see them clearly through the strong sun. But
even the first glimpse of leg out of the car tells me it is Dee. Her feet were
always neat-looking, as if God himself had shaped them with a certain style.
From the other side of the car comes a short, stocky man. Hair is all over his
head a foot long and hanging from his chin like a kinky mule tail. I hear
Maggie suck in her breath. "Uhnnnh, " is what it sounds like. Like
when you see the wriggling end of a snake just in front of your foot on the
road. "Uhnnnh."
Dee next. A dress down to the ground, in this hot weather. A
dress so loud it hurts my eyes. There are yellows and oranges enough to throw
back the light of the sun. I feel my whole face warming from the heat waves it
throws out. Earrings gold, too, and hanging down to her shoulders. Bracelets
dangling and making noises when she moves her arm up to shake the folds of the
dress out of her armpits. The dress is loose and flows, and as she walks
closer, I like it. I hear Maggie go "Uhnnnh" again. It is her
sister's hair. It stands straight up like the wool on a sheep. It is black as
night and around the edges are two long pigtails that rope about like small
lizards disappearing behind her ears.
"Wasuzo-Teano!" she says, coming on in that
gliding way the dress makes her move. The short stocky fellow with the hair to
his navel is all grinning and he follows up with "Asalamalakim, my mother
and sister!" He moves to hug Maggie but she falls back, right up against
the back of my chair. I feel her trembling there and when I look up I see the
perspiration falling off her chin.
"Don't get up," says Dee. Since I am stout it
takes something of a push. You can see me trying to move a second or two before
I make it. She turns, showing white heels through her sandals, and goes back to
the car. Out she peeks next with a Polaroid. She stoops down quickly and lines
up picture after picture of me sitting there in front of the house with Maggie
cowering behind me. She never takes a shot without making sure the house is
included. When a cow comes nibbling around the edge of the yard she snaps it and
me and Maggie and the house. Then she puts the Polaroid in the back seat of the
car, and comes up and kisses me on the forehead.
Meanwhile Asalamalakim is going through motions with
Maggie's hand. Maggie's hand is as limp as a fish, and probably as cold,
despite the sweat, and she keeps trying to pull it back. It looks like Asalamalakim
wants to shake hands but wants to do it fancy. Or maybe he don't know how
people shake hands. Anyhow, he soon gives up on Maggie.
"Well," I say. "Dee."
"No, Mama," she says. "Not 'Dee,' Wangero
Leewanika Kemanjo!"
"What happened to 'Dee'?" I wanted to know.
"She's dead," Wangero said. "I couldn't bear
it any longer, being named after the people who oppress me."
"You know as well as me you was named after your aunt Dicie,"
I said. Dicie is my sister. She named Dee. We called her "Big Dee"
after Dee was born.
"But who was she named after?" asked Wangero.
"I guess after Grandma Dee," I said.
"And who was she named after?" asked Wangero.
"Her mother," I said, and saw Wangero was getting
tired. "That's about as far back as I can trace it," I said. Though,
in fact, I probably could have carried it back beyond the Civil War through the
branches.
"Well," said Asalamalakim, "there you
are."
"Uhnnnh," I heard Maggie say.
"There I was not," I said, "before 'Dicie'
cropped up in our family, so why should I try to trace it that far back?"
He just stood there grinning, looking down on me like
somebody inspecting a Model A car. Every once in a while he and Wangero sent
eye signals over my head.
"How do you pronounce this name?" I asked.
"You don't have to call me by it if you don't want
to," said Wangero.
"Why shouldn't 1?" I asked. "If that's what
you want us to call you, we'll call you."
"I
know it might sound awkward at first," said Wangero.
"I'll get used to it," I said. "Ream it out
again."
Well, soon we got the name out of the way. Asalamalakim had
a name twice as long and three times as hard. After I tripped over it two or
three times he told me to just call him Hakim-a-barber. I wanted to ask him was
he a barber, but I didn't really think he was, so I didn't ask.
"You must belong to those beef-cattle peoples down the
road," I said. They said "Asalamalakim" when they met you, too,
but they didn't shake hands. Always too busy: feeding the cattle, fixing the
fences, putting up salt-lick shelters, throwing down hay. When the white folks
poisoned some of the herd the men stayed up all night with rifles in their
hands. I walked a mile and a half just to see the sight.
Hakim-a-barber said, "I accept some of their doctrines,
but farming and raising cattle is not my style." (They didn't tell me, and
I didn't ask, whether Wangero (Dee) had really gone and married him.)
We sat down to eat and right away he said he didn't eat
collards and pork was unclean. Wangero, though, went on through the chitlins
and com bread, the greens and everything else. She talked a blue streak over
the sweet potatoes. Everything delighted her. Even the fact that we still used
the benches her daddy made for the table when we couldn't effort to buy chairs.
"Oh, Mama!" she cried. Then turned to
Hakim-a-barber. "I never knew how lovely these benches are. You can feel
the rump prints," she said, running her hands underneath her and along the
bench. Then she gave a sigh and her hand closed over Grandma Dee's butter dish.
"That's it!" she said. "I knew there was something I wanted to
ask you if I could have." She jumped up from the table and went over in
the corner where the churn stood, the milk in it crabber by now. She looked at
the churn and looked at it.
"This churn top is what I need," she said.
"Didn't Uncle Buddy whittle it out of a tree you all used to have?"
"Yes," I said.
"Un huh," she said happily. "And I want the
dasher, too."
"Uncle Buddy whittle that, too?" asked the barber.
Dee (Wangero) looked up at me.
"Aunt Dee's first husband whittled the dash," said
Maggie so low you almost couldn't hear her. "His name was Henry, but they
called him Stash."
"Maggie's brain is like an elephant's," Wangero
said, laughing. "I can use the chute top as a centerpiece for the alcove
table," she said, sliding a plate over the chute, "and I'll think of
something artistic to do with the dasher."
When she finished wrapping the dasher the handle stuck out.
I took it for a moment in my hands. You didn't even have to look close to see
where hands pushing the dasher up and down to make butter had left a kind of
sink in the wood. In fact, there were a lot of small sinks; you could see where
thumbs and fingers had sunk into the wood. It was beautiful light yellow wood,
from a tree that grew in the yard where Big Dee and Stash had lived.
After dinner Dee (Wangero) went to the trunk at the foot of
my bed and started rifling through it. Maggie hung back in the kitchen over the
dishpan. Out came Wangero with two quilts. They had been pieced by Grandma Dee
and then Big Dee and me had hung them on the quilt frames on the front porch
and quilted them. One was in the Lone Star pattern. The other was Walk Around
the Mountain. In both of them were scraps of dresses Grandma Dee had won fifty
and more years ago. Bits and pieces of Grandpa Jattell's Paisley shirts. And
one teeny faded blue piece, about the size of a penny matchbox, that was from
Great Grandpa Ezra's uniform that he wore in the Civil War.
"Mama," Wanegro said sweet as a bird. "Can I
have these old quilts?"
I heard something fall in the kitchen, and a minute later
the kitchen door slammed.
"Why don't you take one or two of the others?" I
asked. "These old things was just done by me and Big Dee from some tops
your grandma pieced before she died."
"No," said Wangero. "I don't want those. They
are stitched around the borders by machine."
"That'll make them last better," I said.
"That's not the point," said Wangero. "These
are all pieces of dresses Grandma used to wear. She did all this stitching by hand.
Imag' ine!" She held the quilts securely in her arms, stroking them.
"Some of the pieces, like those lavender ones, come
from old clothes her mother handed down to her," I said, moving up to
touch the quilts. Dee (Wangero) moved back just enough so that I couldn't reach
the quilts. They already belonged to her.
"Imagine!" she breathed again, clutching them
closely to her bosom.
"The truth is," I said, "I promised to give
them quilts to Maggie, for when she marries John Thomas."
She
gasped like a bee had stung her.
"Maggie can't appreciate these quilts!" she said.
"She'd probably be backward enough to put them to everyday use."
"I reckon she would," I said. "God knows I
been saving 'em for long enough with nobody using 'em. I hope she will!" I
didn't want to bring up how I had offered Dee (Wangero) a quilt when she went
away to college. Then she had told they were old~fashioned, out of style.
"But they're priceless!" she was saying now, furiously;
for she has a temper. "Maggie would put them on the bed and in five years
they'd be in rags. Less than that!"
"She can always make some more," I said.
"Maggie knows how to quilt."
Dee (Wangero) looked at me with hatred. "You just will
not understand. The point is these quilts, these quilts!"
"Well," I said, stumped. "What would you do
with them?"
"Hang them," she said. As if that was the only
thing you could do with quilts.
Maggie by now was standing in the door. I could almost hear
the sound her feet made as they scraped over each other.
"She can have them, Mama," she said, like somebody
used to never winning anything, or having anything reserved for her. "I
can 'member Grandma Dee without the quilts."
I looked at her hard. She had filled her bottom lip with
checkerberry snuff and gave her face a kind of dopey, hangdog look. It was
Grandma Dee and Big Dee who taught her how to quilt herself. She stood there
with her scarred hands hidden in the folds of her skirt. She looked at her
sister with something like fear but she wasn't mad at her. This was Maggie's
portion. This was the way she knew God to work.
When I looked at her like that something hit me in the top
of my head and ran down to the soles of my feet. Just like when I'm in church
and the spirit of God touches me and I get happy and shout. I did something I
never done before: hugged Maggie to me, then dragged her on into the room,
snatched the quilts out of Miss Wangero's hands and dumped them into Maggie's
lap. Maggie just sat there on my bed with her mouth open.
"Take one or two of the others," I said to Dee.
But she turned without a word and went out to Hakim~a~barber.
"You just don't understand," she said, as Maggie
and I came out to the car.
"What
don't I understand?" I wanted to know.
"Your heritage," she said, and then she turned to
Maggie, kissed her, and said, "You ought to try to make something of
yourself, too, Maggie. It's really a new day for us. But from the way you and
Mama still live you'd never know it."
She put on some sunglasses that hid everything above the tip
of her nose and chin.
Maggie smiled; maybe at the sunglasses. But a real smile,
not scared. After we watched the car dust settle I asked Maggie to bring me a
dip of snuff. And then the two of us sat there just enjoying, until it was time
to go in the house and go to bed.